I do not promote self-harm, eating disorders, or suicide. I do not own anything you see on this blog except my own words.

This is an expression of the war inside my mind.

And don't forget that boys can have eating disorders, as well as cut themselves. Just look at me.

17th September 2014


starlaabeth said: your blog is perfect.😍 follow me?

My blog is far from perfect, but I thank you greatly!! :D :D I like your blog as well, so I followed you <3 If you ever want to talk about anything at all, I will always be happy to listen, no matter what!

16th September 2014



Woah, I honestly haven’t felt weeks these weeks go by! It feels like a couple days!

Right… PSEO as a 16 year old at the University of Minnesota… It’s been amazing. It is so different from high-school! I love it so much! Everyone is so nice in my class too! My Ojibwemowin professor is amazing. She is super down to earth and kind. She is rather young, and Ojibwe is her second language. 

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Tagged: OjibweChippewaPSEOSchoolCollegeamazing

11th September 2014

Link reblogged from Aaron's tumblr stuff

The internet just changed: Net Neutrality is dead. →








Last Wednesday, FCC Chairman Tom Wheeler announced a proposal for new rules that would allow for a “ fast lane” of Internet traffic for content providers who are willing (and able) to pay a fee. [1] The proposal reverses the FCC’s previous commitment to net neutrality and open internet and allows ISP’s like Comcast or Verizon to slow down and censor services that don’t pay the toll.

We have to be totally honest, this situation is seriously grim. But there is still hope. The FCC already knows that the Internet community wants net neutrality, but they think they can put their spin on these new rules and sneak them through. If we can prove them wrong right now with a massive public outcry, we can literally save the Internet once again.

We need to stop the FCC now. Big business groups are already ramping up lobbying efforts with the FCC in swarms since Wednesday’s announcement in support of censoring the open Internet and to ensure this dangerous proposal moves forward. [2]

This is a critical moment. In the last few weeks more than 65,000 people have taken action with us. Can you help us get to 80,000 by the end of the day today?

[1] Gautham Nagesh. “FCC to Propose New ‘Net Neutrality’ Rules”.

[2] Edward Wyatt. Edward Wyatt. “Lobbying Efforts Intensify After F.C.C. Tries 3rd Time on Net Neutrality” http://www.nytimes.com/2014/04/25/business/lobbying-efforts-intensify-after-fcc-tries-3rd-time-on-net-neutrality.html?hpw&rref=politics


we’re almost 3/4 of the way there!! c’mon guys, every bit counts!

will it ever stop

fucking signal boost



Last one, SIGNAL BOOST!!!

Tagged: importantinternetFCCnet nutrality

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1st September 2014


An update thingy

So tomorrow is my first day of my junior year of high school! Also, tomorrow is the first day of PSEO learning Ojibwemowin at the University of Minnesota! No one in my school has ever gotten into the U of M as a PSEO student before me! Everyone is so proud of me for achieving this at only 16 years old!! Even people I have never met before congratulate me if I mention it!! It is a feeling I have never felt before!! Everyone being proud of me- everyone smiling at me… I can’t let them down… I can’t let them or my family… I can’t let my dad down… I can’t let down my ancestors. And I can’t let down the future of the Ojibwe.

Wish me luck, everyone. 


Tagged: OjibweChippewaPSEOHigh schoolBack to schoolPersonalSchool

20th August 2014


I don’t even know anymore…

This is my fourth time worrying again this week… I have had such trouble sleeping these past x days. It is 3:46 AM.

These periods of constant worry… I hate them so, so much… they go on for hours and hours and hours. No matter how hard I try to take my mind off of everything, it either doesn’t work whatsoever or just comes flooding back a couple minutes later…     :(

I don’t know what to do anymore… I really don’t… 

Tagged: sadi worry too muchworry

17th August 2014


Update thingy

This blog turned one year old on the 14th. So…..yay.

Um… I have been feeling really… horrible. Simple way of putting it. I keep having these, like, periods of panic and worry. I just feel worried about every single thing about my life and I can’t help but think about every possible bad thing that could happen and those thoughts won’t get away for hours… 

The first time was around two weeks ago, the second a week after that, the third one a day ago, and the fourth one right now… 

Last night, around two hours after I started worrying about everything again, I took some medicine to help me fall asleep… I laid down at around midnight. I think I dozed off three times, but immediately woke up. There were times where I was also basically dreaming. It was more like a really active imagination, because my “dream” was more of my thoughts. And when I opened my eyes my thoughts kept going uninterrupted, so… yeah… 

All of that took place over three hours… then I got some water and tried to go to sleep for three more hours, but to no avail. I tried again a few minutes ago, but I couldn’t fall asleep. It is 7:22 AM now.

I just am so stressed about everything… my horrible home life, high-school starting again soon, PSEO starting soon, friends, 5 appointments that need to be made… and so much more… you have no idea…..  :(

Tagged: updatepersonalblehstressworry

12th August 2014

Photoset reblogged from screams about dragons





Tagged: AdorableCute

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10th August 2014

Photo reblogged from THE ANIMAL EFFECT


reblog if this cat is prettier than you


reblog if this cat is prettier than you

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5th August 2014

Photoset reblogged from A Little Bird Told Me



These Red-winged Blackbirds riding around on a Red-tailed Hawk. Incredible! Apparently this isn’t all that uncommon. Read more about it on the source’s website.

That’s brilliant!

Tagged: Birdsbirds of preyred winged blackbirdred tailed hawkfunnyAnimals

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3rd August 2014

Post reblogged from b r o k e n

Reblog if you’re insecure with how you look.

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28th July 2014


madiscnbeer said: thank you so much omg but im not adorable :c xox depression-took-over-my-liife

It seems that my eyes are a little better than yours, for I can easily see what you are unable to. One of those things being that you are, in fact, adorable.

28th July 2014

Post reblogged from b r o k e n

this is to the boys who:


cut, starve, have tried to kill themselves, burn, bruise, purge, hate their body, wish they were dead, feel hopeless, compare themselves to other guys, cry themselves to sleep, are abused, are alone, are scared. 

you aren’t forgotten. not by me. 

…….This means so much to me 

27th July 2014

Photoset reblogged from Equine Vet Adventures



This cute orange kitty is named Caligula. I took him in at ten weeks after the first family to adopt him couldn’t handle his hyperactivity. The kitten picture is actually him during his first week with me. After he grew out of his kitten months, he became one of the sweetest kitties I have ever encountered. 

Unfortunately, a few months ago when play fighting with one of our other kitties he fell from the fridge and hit his leg, we rushed him to the vet but she did not think the leg was broken, and prescribed some metacam. 

Periodically since then his leg will seem to be hurting him if he happens to land wrong after jumping. Today he managed to hurt his other leg when jumping from the kitchen counter. So I decided to make a campaign in attempts to raise money to help with his vet bills to figure out why he keeps hurting himself. 

We simply need help covering the cost of his vet bills

Without help I won’t be able to get xrays done, and it pains me more than anything to see such a sweet creature repeatedly injuring himself. 

If you can’t donate, please share this post!!

Caligula will be so much happier thanks to you!  The first time this happened he went to the vet right after and she gave him metacam, but through palpating his leg could not feel any sort of fracture, so she did not recommend the xrays be taken at that time. 

However, since then he has repeatedly managed to hurt himself from small falls and I fear there is something wrong with a tendon, or one of his teeny tiny metatarsal bones. Or worse, I fear maybe he is doing damage to his femoral heads, a pretty common condition in large cats. It’s so frustrating to see him repeatedly hurting himself like this, and the metacam perscription does little. 

Any little bit helps, if just 25 people donated 20 dollars we will reach our goal! If 500 people donated a dollar we would reach it just the same! Click HERE to view the campaign and donate.

Even if you can’t donate, please share this post! Thank you so much for any help. If you have absolutely any questions, please ask

Guys I won’t start working until next month, so I can’t donate, but please spread this around if you can’t donate, or donate if you are able to. Thank you :)

Tagged: CatKittyCatsAnimalsHelpVet

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26th July 2014

Photo reblogged from THE ANIMAL EFFECT

Tagged: NaturePhotographyRicky Gervaisanimal cruelty

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25th July 2014

Post reblogged from Don't Leave







I’ll be writing down every url that reblogs in a notebook and I’m giving it to my homophobic father.

Smack him with it.

Throw it at his face



It Won’t kill you PEOPLE LOVE WHO THEY WAN”T TO GET OVER IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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